All this while I've learned that it's preferable not to blog about something when there was something happened on you or around you lately, do drag post, then other people might don't know what were you blogged bout, contradictions and hesitation may confuse their decision-making or judgment.

Sometimes, you teach me how a girl should be, being self-conscious or higher self-esteem and so on. Condemning me not to do this and that, and especially always eliminating from being debauched girl. Well, I do know what I ought to do before you tell me all these. I kept silent, because I know you did these were just for my sake.

You judged, showing your disdain on me before I telling the entire story. This is so pretty unfair.
 
You said a girl should not swallowing her pride when she's in love, yes I agree with your stand, but can you tell me are you the one who judge a girl by a text? A text which is so-not-relevant to you. Of course, you judged me in a kind of unfair way and I'm sorry, that's only your thought. That's not the truth dude.

I wanted to ask you that, so what kind of girl she is? I doubted and wondered how expensive is her pride when she calling you and the etc? Is she the same as me? Answer this question in your heart. And I can tell you if I'm those girl who you described bout then she's the one of them too. So can you tell me how's your feelings right now when I judged the one who you love/loved so much when I fucking don't know anything bout you and her? Mad right? Feel so pretty unfair? Yes and this was how I felt that time.

However, I was trying to tell you guys how candy-sweet was I texting with someone who I wish to be with, that time. You judged me at first, and I judged her without any intention but just wish you to know that, being assertive with your stands just because you think you've seasoned and have so much experiences is not the right way to judge one when you only knew a part of the fact. And, I'm so sensitive with that 'word' like how sensitive am I with the word 'fat' -.-

Why am I writing all these? Apparently, I do care bout what you've said to me. 

Just because both of us are the same person, so we do fight often compare to when I'm with another of him. Knowing true colours of each others and being so straight-forwarded are good for us, but, what happened to us lately? Always take it as your fault but will never tell me what I've done which you think I should not to do. And all I can do to you is apologize, there's nothing I can do to reconstruct our bonds besides a sorry.

lcs,I think I'm sorry (sometimes).

亲爱的，我只想说，我们认识彼此了那么多年，无畏又在纠纷中更肯定对方的人格了，不是吗？



一直都有阅读的习惯，但后来才发现我有种当我对人生或生活一些不公平和感到困惑的时候才会捧起书的习惯。而，我捧书的习惯犹如我吃饭的次数那么多。生活，总让我多不明白，总有数不清的不满。

在我书架上添购了刘庸的著作，可是我发现我总没办法把他的著作读完，虽然只是区区那三本。他的著作无法像喝啤酒一样一口气灌入胃里，如果细心咀嚼他的著作里的文章，在阅读的同时，才知道我们也必须领着漂浮不定的灵魂跟着刘庸一丿一竖走，他的每一段每一行每一个字非常肯定了它因烙在在纸上的意义。

在写下任何一篇日志还是文章之下，我们都必须有些 “当” 才能启迪脑袋撰写。而，我最近的“当” 是看了刘庸的《不负我心》而撩起了我想对某些人写下这一切。然而，就当我对现在看着这一篇文章的你说也罢。

#PS: 但，在我写下这前，我想对一个曾经盗用我的好朋友陈小姐的原创的人而把她美丽的文笔引用在你的部落格上好像这一切都是你写的女人说，管你看谁的文章也好，管你听了谁说的话也好，当你要quote还是引用别人的原创，麻烦你至少表明那一大段不是你写的，college做assignments都有harvard systems，我坚持，尊敬他人的原创。




这两张照片都是当我看了刘庸而前者感动十分后者感触百分的时候拍下来，动人心弦的文章是必须拿出来分享。到目前为止，令我有 “当” 的反应是刘庸这么一句话：

Danggg! This is how I look like recently, no more BANG! Boooooo! x) Firstly I would like to thank to those people who told me that I'm really suit for BangBangBangBang, yeap, I don't deny that bang really suit for long face like horse use to have, -____- but seriously bang really do annoyed me much all these while.

So, no more Bangggggggg, don't fcking try to tell me how fucking pretty am I with bang, -____- mind your own hairstyle first.

Left few photos about my trip, so just enjoy going thru those meaningless pichas. Haha xD I haven't solve my blog's problem yet!!! Should I open a new blog??????????? : ( fml la. I don't wanna waste my precious time on doing all this bullshits ! Help me SOS !